disconnectie

Well today is June19 my dads bday/ saturday which is good cause i am off tomorrow & its church tomorrow! super pumped! While i was at work i had some free time in between calls so i was listening to mark driscoll & he was talking about identity. Thats kinda of hard for me cause i struggle sometimes cause i know i know whats true and who Jesus is but when i look at the world and i c or think what its like to have a relationship or be powerful or have money or whatevr, my mind tends to drift away from who i really am. I think that is ok but as long as i keep my foundation deep and make sure who i hav my identity in. Today also at work my friend was talking to one of my other friends about some theological issues aswell. My friend kinda likes to read from buddha & from dali lama (idont even know if i spelled that right) you know she likes to pull things from all over and my other friend really good guy we pretty much agree on reformed issues was telling her that she is wrong for doing that which she is. Thats where i want to go with make sure who our & my identity is in. Its not wrong to hear or listen to other theologins or just anyone that has a good info but they r not the truth. You can pull something good out of anything but really after you tasted Jesus bro its really hard to try anthing else. I know my friend is not wrong for reading & listening to other people and i surely dont want her to try to compare herself to any of those guys or even me. I just want her to know where does her identity lye. Also i was running the other day and thanks to my supervisor at work i think he has been encouraging me a little to try to eat better and take care of myself but actually i think we have both been encouraging each other. anyway there was a song from norma jean that came on called disconnectie and i was like wow what an awesome song cause sometimes in my life i can feel like i am far from God but actually he really has never even left me. He has always been there. People think that when they do wrong the gap keeps growing farther away but actually its the other way around whenever we do wrong or mess up God gets closer and closer cause of grace and that just tickles me cause i know thats true and i love it. thats the way it should b.

animo people

Last week i went to tijuanna mexico on a mission trip last week and it was a blast. i wanted to blog today and recapture the thoughts of the week. i am not gonna lie it was totally brutal as in the work. I think i made myself sick lol. pretty much of everyday we woke up at 7am west coast time and we left the orphanage by 7:30 and did not return to about 10:30 every night. It was truly a blessing. I was my second time going. I kinda felt like a rock star to because when we would hang out with the kids they would run up to you and want to hug on you lol. I am not the type of person to get wore down but there was so many kids that wanted to play that it got overwhelming. I know they don't get loved on very much so I wanted to make sure I loved on them. While I have been thinking about that thought I thought to myself man so many times in my own life i get very selfish cause i want this or that/ maybe a relationship maybe a family wound to heal/ maybe i just want to move somewhere or maybe just something else. While we were flying back to tennessee we hit a storm that was pretty much ripping nashville tn. I could c all the lighting above the clouds and it made me really think about how big God was and how small i was. I believe Hebrews 13:5 we all my heart by when it says "i will never leave the nor forsake thee." So I know Jesus has me taken care of always I don't know how come i worry, sweat it out, just really doubt sometimes lol. I know he is got it all taken care of. If God takes care of everything else he will surely take care of me cause if i really think about it its always about me anyway? whatever its all about Jesus

DANGEROUS

Since my last post which has been too long I have been up to a lot of things but have been thinking a lot aswell. I have been thinking about what does it take to be a dangerous person. I am not talking about someone that owns many guns, explosives or is just a thug lol. I have been thinking about what does it take to be a dangerous christian. Sometimes when I am talking to friends I forget to really tell them about Jesus. I know I cant shove it down some ones throat but I really feel like I live out my life to honor Jesus. I do want to respect all kinds of faiths but there is something about Jesus that doesnt even compare to anything else. I really appreciate people that dont share the same as I do. Sometimes as christians i can get so set in my way and really forget what its all about. For instance I was in Mcdonalds this past sunday night with some friends and some church people walked in and I knew they were church people by the way they dressed. I know its not what u wear to church its about your heart. They did not talk to me, I really did not say anything back but I feel in our American culture that we can put labels on people which is really wrong. These people were probably real legit christians but I really think what it means to be a christian is not the clothes you wear, not length of my hair its the cross that I bear. Being a christian is something different everyday. Its like a journey. I will never achieve christianity but I don't know if thats something I really want either I just want to be more like Jesus. That sometimes is so hard to do even when i am around other people that dont share the same belief i do.

I have been living in knoxville tn for almost 2 years and i really enjoy living here. Before i moved to tn i lived in asheville nc and greenville sc which i would of rathered stayed in greenville but i did have to graduate college so i moved back home. I hated pretty much every second living at home. My friend moved to knoxville and he was always trying to get me to move here but i was like i will never move to knoxville. Now I am here. I think about that story Jonah that ran from what God was calling him to do then got swallowed up by a big fish. I know i was not running from God but i feel like i am a Jonah in a way because Jonah did not want to go where God was calling him and he was disciplined but after he got sick of being in a belly of a fish he finally done what God was calling him to do. Jonah was happy he got spit up by the fish but when he was doing what God was called him to do which was telling people of Ninevah to repent he really was not that happy either but he should of been. I understand that maybe i did not want to move to knoxville but i know thats what God has called me to be. God has really blessed me too much anyway and he continually does but i feel like all had to do is just move and i did not want to. I had to wait till i pretty much had to force myself to knoxville and now I am like man I can see why God let me do this. It was nothing. I know i am here for a reason and i am really greatly for being here. I know my post are probably not that interesting but i hope someone can find a sense of encouragement here.

propituation is "the situation"

if anyone has seen the jersey shore you know "the situation." I am not going to talk about him but i want to talk about propituation. I have not heard that word alot in my life but this past sunday my pastor was using it. I also was listening to one of mark driscoll sermons this past week and he aswell used the word. I was thinking about both this past week and i really do not deserve it. My pastor used propituation as though God will never ever ever ever ever etc........... forgive my sins. I think about that and i know i am guilty but i know one that day when i stand before God it will not be about what i have done, what kind of house i had, car i drove, name on a building, how much money i had in the bank. It will be about what kind of servant i was. Jesus will be the on who will stand in for me cause he is perfect in everway. I don't even deserve any blessing. Propituation is where everything bad I have done and will ever do. My sins were placed on the cross where Jesus died like a tattoo. Jesus took my sins and took them away. My understanding of my friend Mark sermon was that Jesus lived a sinless life but had the sins of humanity on him on the cross. my friend was talking about Jesus being tempted by the devil in the wilderness. he was tempted by turning rocks into bread cause he was hungry then by the devil taken him up on the mount and the devil saying if you fall down before me i will give you all of these nations. I have heard this story before but i really did not understand really what that was saying. That has got to be the prosperity gospel saying Jesus your hungry, turn those rocks into bread. I feel like that is how our culture is today. if your hungry eat. If you donate so much money to this or that (church) God will bless eat you. That is a load of shit. I cannot believe that has crept into our culture. I know i have been guilty of that to but enough is enough. Or even if i just get this house of date this girl i will be happy. we should already be happy becuase what Jesus had done for us. I understand that people may read this of all faiths and thats great. I do want to say i respect all faiths whether you believe in Jesus or not. i know that all people i think struggle with life sometimes like if someone gets sick or if plans dont go the way we expect them to go. As a real christian which it seems like there are not that many of us around. We need to be staying in the word and on our knees so whenever our friends that are not believers come to us or ask us for an answer we have to be compasionate to them & love on them.

In my past 15 months in knoxville i really feel too blessed to be here i know it was Gods plan for me. I have been struggling about what to do next. Some of my friends from work have not been as fortunate as me to still be there. I understand I don't put my trust in people or my job even though i really like my job. I try to do everything i can that makes our light there. I know i don't need to put my trust in anyone cause people will let you down. but while i am in knoxville i have been praying and seeking what to do next whether its to transfer with my company or move on. I have a good friend that told me the other day about i think sometimes since we both have a degree it can be real easy just to settle down and be content with our situation where we are at. I know thats not me. I like to push and look for future and better opportunities. I feel that i can slip into that i am just ok where i am. I am getting alot of good experience where i am at now. I want to make sure i keep up the good work and we shall see what happens next. I don't understand everything that goes on all the time but I want to be sure whatever i do i do it for the glory of God. My friends just put out a cd this past fri jan22. i have to say its quiet done well. you can check them out at myspace.com/dividthesea. They are my friends from school and i have not saw them in a couple of years but i went to greenville sc the see them and saw a few of my friends from school to. I love south carolina so much I really do miss it but i know where i am thats where God wants me. While i was listening to them you could tell they were legit and still wanted there music to be about Jesus. They will tell you straight up they don't care what you believe in they just wants you to know that Jesus loves you no matter what. if you have another way thats cool to. i really miss those guys, they are definatly some good guys. i want to leave this blog with a bible verse 2corinthians 5:17 which is talking about as christian the old life is gone and new life has begun. I want that to be my prayer each day as i run into problems people and whatnot.

i write better while listening to Jay-z

Actually this post has nothing to do with jayz but i do feel like i want to talk about something true. Does anyone feel like you can do something for so long or just feel like you can get into a day to day routine. Its not like you hate your job, you really like your job and glad you have one but it just gets kinda like man i do the same thing all the time. I know sometimes i think i am a perfectionist and i think that is what gets me in trouble. Today at work i had a encouraging funny talk with a friend at work. He was telling me when you feel like you mess up as long as you recognize that and can change so you can do better you have room to grow. I thought about that and I know that is so true because i know people that seem like they know everything and they are kind of stuck up. I do not like that one bit because as people we are always growing and learning and if you think you know everything there is no room to grow. I know i have alot to learn no doubt. I was thinking about Peter in the Bible. The story about Peter trying to walk on the water. Peter had to been a perfectionist. He was trying so hard to walk on the water like Jesus but he started sinking. That story tells me over and over again about my same issue. I know that even though i am not perfect i really do believe its the faith that comes into play most for me. I want to be perfect but i know i am not i suck everyday and thats when my faith in Jesus shows up in my life the most. I know its easy to forget but whoever is reading this i am not trying to tell you how to live your life or about what to do next or anything in that nature. Just put your hope in Jesus even when things are hard. i think about being borned in America which is a blessing in itself. I just think about what happened last week in Haiti with the earthquack. I have been following a couple pastors on my twitter and they have been updating reg. They said it is hell there. I know i can't even imagine being there. I do want to keep them in my prayers. Those people had no idea the earthquake was coming. here i am living in knoxville tennessee and no earthquake. What if something happened like that here it would be devasting. Lord have mercy on us all.

what to say on my 1st blog

My name is Micah Deaver and I am writing my first blog I do know if anyone will read or even cares what I have to blog about but here I go lol. What spurred my interest in doing this is my friend Jared snead you can read his blog at jaredsnead.blogspot.com. He plays in a band called divide the sea in greenville south carolina. This band is not your particular band they spread a hope and passion for Jesus Christ. Last night before I went to bed I read his blog and he was talking about John 13:7 where it says "what I do not realize now, but you will understand hereafter." After reading that I can definatly relate. Sometimes I feel as though I am always looking for the next thing or next relationship to make me feel safe. Since I am a music fan to I look at alot of youtube videos and band interviews to. My friend Aaron Weiss from the band mewithoutyou was talking about the same thing in one of his interviews. He was talking about a story about a horse. One day a horse ran away and the owners neighbor asked his neighbor why are you not sad because your horse ran away. The owner of the horse said who knows whats good and whats bad. The next day the horse came back with two horses. There was a little bit more of the story to it but basically the story was talking about don't put your trust in this or that put your hope in the Lord cause everything else will let you down. Sometimes I know I can think man it sure would be nice if I got to this point in my life or started dating someone or heaven forbid I got married lol or even got a cool job. Only Jesus knows his plan for me I know I need to keep being faithful. In this year to come I hope to put up a blog a week. I hope its an encouragment to my friends. Oh yea if anyone reads this today please pray for my frined nikki at work she is having surgery today. One more thing to add if anyone has any ?'s for me please don't being to ask