disconnectie

Well today is June19 my dads bday/ saturday which is good cause i am off tomorrow & its church tomorrow! super pumped! While i was at work i had some free time in between calls so i was listening to mark driscoll & he was talking about identity. Thats kinda of hard for me cause i struggle sometimes cause i know i know whats true and who Jesus is but when i look at the world and i c or think what its like to have a relationship or be powerful or have money or whatevr, my mind tends to drift away from who i really am. I think that is ok but as long as i keep my foundation deep and make sure who i hav my identity in. Today also at work my friend was talking to one of my other friends about some theological issues aswell. My friend kinda likes to read from buddha & from dali lama (idont even know if i spelled that right) you know she likes to pull things from all over and my other friend really good guy we pretty much agree on reformed issues was telling her that she is wrong for doing that which she is. Thats where i want to go with make sure who our & my identity is in. Its not wrong to hear or listen to other theologins or just anyone that has a good info but they r not the truth. You can pull something good out of anything but really after you tasted Jesus bro its really hard to try anthing else. I know my friend is not wrong for reading & listening to other people and i surely dont want her to try to compare herself to any of those guys or even me. I just want her to know where does her identity lye. Also i was running the other day and thanks to my supervisor at work i think he has been encouraging me a little to try to eat better and take care of myself but actually i think we have both been encouraging each other. anyway there was a song from norma jean that came on called disconnectie and i was like wow what an awesome song cause sometimes in my life i can feel like i am far from God but actually he really has never even left me. He has always been there. People think that when they do wrong the gap keeps growing farther away but actually its the other way around whenever we do wrong or mess up God gets closer and closer cause of grace and that just tickles me cause i know thats true and i love it. thats the way it should b.